Do you ever feel like you must have done something in another life, or two or three lives, that led to you getting a never ending bitch slap from karma in this lifetime? Lately I feel like I, and my family, must have earned the equivalent of some really dark karma with what we have going on in our family and lives. One of my dogs was diagnosed with lymphoma and we are fighting to save her life (visit her website at http://www.savebambi.net/ for information or to find ways to help), my mother had a stroke and was hospitalized for approx. two months and had some complications while in the hospital and was just released apparently too early with a caregiver that is clueless, when my mother came home from the hospital my stepfather had a heart attack and now he is in the hospital. I live out of state and it is difficult for me to get there to help, plus I just finished with school and have been taking Bambi to chemo appointments. My brothers that are capable of helping are both busy with other things or out of town. The only brother around them right now has some challenges that would make him a less than perfect caregiver and he doesn’t drive. If you do get punished in your present life for things done in past lives is it really fair? It’s not like in this life you have any conscious awareness of what you may have done in the past to be screwed by karma in this life so you just go through life being miserable and wondering what you ever did to deserve always getting not only the short end of the stick, but it’s also covered in dog shit.
As I am Bitter Betty number one I will make this about me, until the other two decide to contribute to something more than the name. I am a graduate of UNLV, but am native to California, and while my personality prefers California, my bank account (though quite empty at the moment) prefers Las Vegas. I am quite contrary in my personality, in that I am both quite opinionated, and pretty much an introvert. A bit of an enigma I suppose. I am a huge animal lover with dreams of starting my own animal sanctuary. I love crafting, arts, and music of all sorts, and have many interests if I could just get myself to stay out of pain long enough, or focus on one particular thing long enough, to perfect it. I have been in multiple car accidents (none of which were my fault thank you very much as I was usually the passenger), have been told that I likely have fibromyalgia (but for some reason I can't get my doctors to further explore the issue), suffer from chronic migraines, as well as every other kind of headache that exists, and a laundry list of problems associated with these issues and because of this I can't attack my various interests as often, or as voraciously as I would like, and have been out of work for several years. I'd like to get my own business started so that I could bring in an income while having the freedom that I need in performing a job that allows me to stop and start as needed in order to avoid as much pain as possible.